(Un)Expected House Guest

As I write this, my new house guest, or should I say occupant, is watching t.v. in my basement. My dad. I know I don't talk about him much, and that's because I don't really have much to say. He hasn't been around all that often. So, how did we get here? My parents got …

Your Attendance Is Welcome

I think it's funny that I get annoyed by Christianity. Wait. What? I know. Did you have to read that again? If you didn't know, I am a Christian (I prefer believer, but Christian is acceptable). I was raised in church, even before I was born. Mom and I went to two different churches in …

Anywhere And Here

Hi, my name is Sarah, and I don't know what I'm doing. I feel like I need to start over. Even though you are able to go back and read my previous posts, it seems like it would be a nice gesture to get you caught up. So, let's try that. I quit college to …

Slow News Day

Besides Mom getting a powder to drink to up her sodium (which she hated, by the way), a CAT scan, and an MRI, it was mostly just waiting around for some answers. Here's what Mom wrote in the journal. I feel like my life is about to be nothing. Like I'm not going to be …

And, Here We Go…

Five days in, and things are already looking bleak. The heart doctor's assistant came in and said that Mom was doing better, so from their standpoint, Mom could go home tomorrow. So, right now, if Mom was perfect across the board, this would be good news. But, she wasn't. We were still waiting for her …

Advanced Decisions

Making decisions about the future is scary. You never know what will happen between now, and then. In this moment, or the next. Situations and circumstances change. Conditions change, for better, and for worse. People change, their wants and outlook on life. End of life care is no different. We had a doctor and a …

Will You Trust Him?

The first day in the hospital. Nothing really stands out to me from the journal, except that her heart rate still wasn't going down. And also, this one thing that Mom wrote. Lazarus Factor- one who God helpsWill you trust Him? Will you follow Him anyway? Will you trust Him? Reading this then, I would …

The Beginning Of The End

My mother got her blood drawn more than any other human I know. It started when I was young, and it continued up until December of 2019. That's an awful long time. No one had an issue, and if they did, it wasn't a big issue. But on this day, November 2nd, 2019, for some …

We Need To Talk About Mom

November 1st, 2019. The day before Mom went into the hospital, and everything changed. I know, that sentence sounds cliche, but every did change. I've been feeling antsy and on edge this past week, leading up to November. I blamed the moon as a joke, knowing it was my body and/or brain gearing up for …

It’s Not Your Fault, It’s Mine

Photo by Shane Aldendorff on Pexels.com It might come out wrong, but at least we're speaking.Pastor Steven Furtick, Be The Bridge I didn't grow up with a lot of black classmates. I didn't even have a lot of black friends when I was little. I honestly didn't pay them any mind. Because, well, I saw …