Happy December 1st! Can you believe this is the first day of the last month? It’s so crazy! And, this is my 300th post! That’s pretty cool, right?
So, I don’t know if you’ve noticed this or not, but, I haven’t written much this month. Well, if you didn’t notice, I’m letting you know, I haven’t written much.
And here’s why.
After months of being sick, my mother was admitted into the hospital on the 2nd. We didn’t expect her to still be in there there. I have been working, coming home to change and grab a few things, and then drive an hour to see her, or even spend the night (or two). I have tried to stay home to clean the house, or even have a minute to myself, but my mother doesn’t really care about the house right now. And I guess the hour to and from the hospital is my time alone. When I do spend time at home, it’s basically to take a shower and sleep.
I’m not complaining. Even though the house is a mess, I have no mental energy to clean it up anyway, so when Mom says to not worry about the house, I’m all for it. As far as having a minute to myself, well, I find an hour here and anhour there, and I make the most of it. Then, I realize I don’t want to be alone, and I go see her.
Seriously, at the beginning of all of this, I would be in the house alone and start crying because it was too quiet, and she wasn’t there. I love being alone, ok? Sometimes I thrive on it. But that’s when my mom is home and I know she’s ok, and I know I can be alone and not have to worry about her. It was weird, scary even, to think that I was alone in a house that always had her in it.
This month has been hard. One day she doesn’t even know I’m there, and the next she tells me she thought I was in the next room being held against my will. One day I’m being told she’s at the end of her life, and the next I’m told she is healthy enough to go home. Emails from her telling me she’s being moved to a different floor, and she doesn’t know why. More emails about how she had to wait hours before anyone came to help her to the bathroom (at which point, she had already gone and was waiting for someone to clean her up).
I missed a lot of hours at work, fromleaving early to calling out because I had to be at the hospital to talk to the doctor. But I am super blessed to work somewhere, where my boss tells me to take the week off (which I didn’t do because of finances), and a co-worker tells me she will pick up any day I need her to. And my family came out of the woodwork to call and ask how Mom is, and to help us in any way they could (which they did, and I am, and will forever be grateful for all of them).
On top of all of that, I was trying to do NaNo. I just barely got there, but I had the worst time keeping up with it. Right now, as I sit here and type this, I say this is going to be my last year (but, when it comes around next, I’ll probably end up trying it again).
I’m mentally exhausted. Physically, I’m ok. Mentally, I just want to sleep.
Mom is still not out of the hospital. We’re hoping for tomorrow, but it all depends on physical therapy. The only reason she’s not home yet is because we had to wait for a bed to open up at a skill nursing facility. But on Friday, we were told that if physical therapy can come out to the house, she can go home. So, fingers crossed, knock on wood, pray to Jesus.
But, here’s what I’m going to try to do:
- Where’s your November SCRIBEdelivery?
- That will be up sometime this month. Hopefully before I get this month’s shipment.
- I’d like to try to review my Influenster voxbox that I got this month, but no promises.
- I have a few more reviews that I’d like to try to do, but again, I don’t know what’s going to happen any time soon.
- I’m going to try to do quote from my NaNo on Instagram, like I did last year. I’ll update you on that if I do decide to try it.
- I want to do a YouTube video so bad! I’ve been wanting to do one this whole year! I have an idea for one, but if it doesn’t work out, I’ve got one word for you: cats.
- I want to show you something I’ve been working on, but I need to work on it a little bit more (I’ll give you a hint over on Instagram).
Can you see that the word of the day is try? That’s all I can do.
Well, thank you for reading. I appreciate you, so very much.
I will talk to you soon! Bye!